Here is a little sex video story of my own. Years ago, when my partner and I were still in the getting-to-know-each-other stage of our relationship he confessed that he and his previous girlfriend decided to shoot a video of themselves having sex. Although I was surprised to find that out, I was very eager to watch the video. Initially, my man disagreed with the idea since he did not want me to see him making out with another girl.  However, I was extremely persistent. He had no choice but to give in. 

Because the act was consensual, the video was very clear and, I must admit, quite well-made. Forgive me if I do not wish to get into the explicit blow-by-blow details of the video—that’s reserved for the Ladies’ Confession section. Let me just say that it practically had everything you would want to see in a porn movie: sultry dances, stripping, hand jobs, blow jobs, oral sex, 69, girl-on-top, doggie style, sideways, extreme close ups—name it, they did it. And documented it. 

My man was obviously very uncomfortable while we were watching the video. He was fidgety. He would occasionally steal glances at my direction when it came to the acrobatic, moaning, and groaning parts. Often, he would ask me if I wanted to stop or keep watching. I would always tell him that I wanted to watch some more (although inside me it was more like, Turn this off and you’re dead.  Hell yeah, I would love to watch every single second of the show!!!).

I was glued to their home porn from beginning to end. For the record, it did not turn me on. But also I did not feel a tinge of anger or jealousy. What I felt was a sense of satisfaction. 

I am fully aware that what I did back then was something that I am not proud of.  However, I felt that I just had to watch the video. Everyone who is in a relationship has, at one point or another, wondered about his or her partner’s past affairs. What was he/she like with his/her ex’s? What were his/her exes like? It is simply human nature. Then there I was presented with the rare chance to see for myself my partner and his ex-girlfriend in their most intimate and most vulnerable moment. I never asked for it, it just fell on my lap. Without hesitation, I grabbed that perfect opportunity.

Right now, I feel that my relationship with my partner is rock solid. Obviously, that video was never a snag. Our relationship has gotten stronger through the years. I don’t care if he fucked all the girls in the world before me. What I have always held dear is the present. As long as I am the only one he makes love to now, that is all that matters. 

So what ever happened to that sex video?  Immediately after watching the video, my partner and I both destroyed it. I was so proud of myself.