There is a good reason to pay attention to the news these days. Chavit Singson beats up both his common-law wife, Rachel Tiongson and her lover, after catching them in bed. Singson said that he had no regrest hurting Tiongson, the women with whom he has five children. He stressed that he was still good because he did not kill Tiongson and her lover.
We all know about a celebrity doctor getting caught having sex with a bevy of women, well-known or otherwise. Because of their stature, such news have become quite an extravaganza. I am sure that some of you have had their fair share of being discovered while in the middle of lovemaking too. I am not exempted from this. I have had my own experiences of getting caught, literally, with my pants down. And if you all must know, I got caught twice in my lifetime.
I got a lot of feedback through emails and YM after I wrote about my thoughts regarding the video scandal issue. People were basically asking me the same questions so I figured that I will answer all that in this entry.
Aside from my FHM photos, do I keep explicit pics?
Yes.
Do I have sex videos of my own?
Yes.
Do I delete all explicit photos and sex videos after they are taken?
No.
What if they end up being circulated to the public and my identity is revealed?
First of all, I would like to thank all those who expressed concern in the event that this happens to me. Your words were greatly appreciated.
But the truth is, I am nothing compared to Hayden Kho and Katrina Halili. They are celebrities. I am just a regular person. If my private porn falls in the wrong hands, it’s not going to be big news. But, I am fully aware of the controversies that may arise within my own personal circles.
Of course, being discovered is something to worry about. That is why I go through great lengths to protect myself. Should bad luck come my way though, then I guess I will just have to suck it all up and face the consequences. If I had the guts to do all those kinky stuff, I should also have the guts to accept all possible repercussions.
Will I still keep on taking explicit photos and videos of myself despite all the bad sex video publicity and the negative outcome that may come my way? Why?
Yes. And, as always, they will be done discreetly and responsibly. I have said this before and I will say it again: We only live once. I want to enjoy life to the fullest. At this point, I know I have achieved a lot of successes. If my naughty side gets exposed, I am confident that I will not be judged by my explicit pics and sex videos but by my career and life accomplishments. My achievements will far outweigh the crazy things that I do on the side. I am convinced people will just say, “Hey, that’s one cool chick. She’s one savvy professional who knows how to have fun.” Besides, let’s just all look at ourselves now. Don’t we all do some crazy things in our lives?
Here is a little sex video story of my own. Years ago, when my partner and I were still in the getting-to-know-each-other stage of our relationship he confessed that he and his previous girlfriend decided to shoot a video of themselves having sex. Although I was surprised to find that out, I was very eager to watch the video. Initially, my man disagreed with the idea since he did not want me to see him making out with another girl. However, I was extremely persistent. He had no choice but to give in.
Because the act was consensual, the video was very clear and, I must admit, quite well-made. Forgive me if I do not wish to get into the explicit blow-by-blow details of the video—that’s reserved for the Ladies’ Confession section. Let me just say that it practically had everything you would want to see in a porn movie: sultry dances, stripping, hand jobs, blow jobs, oral sex, 69, girl-on-top, doggie style, sideways, extreme close ups—name it, they did it. And documented it.
My man was obviously very uncomfortable while we were watching the video. He was fidgety. He would occasionally steal glances at my direction when it came to the acrobatic, moaning, and groaning parts. Often, he would ask me if I wanted to stop or keep watching. I would always tell him that I wanted to watch some more (although inside me it was more like, Turn this off and you’re dead. Hell yeah, I would love to watch every single second of the show!!!).
I was glued to their home porn from beginning to end. For the record, it did not turn me on. But also I did not feel a tinge of anger or jealousy. What I felt was a sense of satisfaction.
I am fully aware that what I did back then was something that I am not proud of. However, I felt that I just had to watch the video. Everyone who is in a relationship has, at one point or another, wondered about his or her partner’s past affairs. What was he/she like with his/her ex’s? What were his/her exes like? It is simply human nature. Then there I was presented with the rare chance to see for myself my partner and his ex-girlfriend in their most intimate and most vulnerable moment. I never asked for it, it just fell on my lap. Without hesitation, I grabbed that perfect opportunity.
Right now, I feel that my relationship with my partner is rock solid. Obviously, that video was never a snag. Our relationship has gotten stronger through the years. I don’t care if he fucked all the girls in the world before me. What I have always held dear is the present. As long as I am the only one he makes love to now, that is all that matters.
So what ever happened to that sex video? Immediately after watching the video, my partner and I both destroyed it. I was so proud of myself.
Having close to 250 sexy photos in the Internet and counting, Hayden Kho and I seem to share the same interest of documenting private sexy moments.
Unless you live under a rock, you’ll know that the Hayden Kho video scandal is the hottest issue sweeping the nation. So hot a topic it is that the Swine Flu outbreak can wait. I have a few things to say about it, which I’m sure you all want to know. Below are my take on some facts about the controversy.1. First, taking photos and/or videotaping your partner should be a fun thing. I have always harped about how these can actually give more oomph to intimate moments with your loved one. However, it is certainly most wretched and highly disrespectful if this is done without the other person’s consent. I join the nation’s cry of outrage regarding this aspect.
When photos and/or videos are taken, extreme responsibility should be practiced. Whether Kho’s videos were shared, leaked, or stolen, access to such files should always be kept private and guarded.
2. According to politicians, the media and almost everyone who has seen his videos, Hayden Kho is a pervert of the highest kind. But, we are no different from him. If we are guilty of downloading, purchasing, watching the videos, sharing our own copies with our friends and family or taking pleasure in finding out more shocking developments concerning the scandal, we, myself included, should rightfully be called perverts as well.
3. While Hayden Kho has confirmed taking the sex videos and has apologized for his wrongdoings, saying sorry does not cut it. If Hayden was not caught, he would have continued with this little hobby of his. He should be punished harshly. And those who leaked the videos to the public should also be punished the same way.
This is probably the only time that I wish our justice system is similar to Iran’s where wrongdoer’s punishment is the same as the crime he committed. Hence, if Kho and the leakers caused public humiliation and ridicule to the victims, they too should be publicly humiliated and ridiculed.
4. There will be a full blown senate probe and at least three agencies (National Bureau of Investigation, Philippine Drug Enforcement Agency, Philippine Medical Association) will investigate the Kho controversy. Also, other politicians (congressmen, etc.) and agencies (government, non-government, private sectors, etc.) have given their sentiments regarding the issues.
This can only mean two things: the elections are right around the corner or the circus is in town.
5. Katrina Halili wants the senate probe to be made public while Hayde Kho wants the matter to be heard in an executive session. This is unusual. When it comes to sensitive cases, victims normally request for privacy. However with this issue, it is the other way around. I commend Katrina for her bravery. If Kho had the balls (and yes, we’ve all seen them) to do some mischief, he should also be man enough to face the consequences.
6. Kho also has videos with Vicki Belo and there is a possibility that these are the latest videos being circulated in the net and on the streets. Oh dear, let’s not go there. Let’s all go back to this thing called life. But if that’s too hard, let’s just watch Hayden Kho reruns.
Okay, I should stop. I do not wish to make this entry a Hayden Kho bashfest. The truth is, we are all very fortunate that he is who he is, someone famous who chose the perfect partners, and was caught doing the deed. So, I shall end this blog with thank you’s.
Thank you, Hayden, for opening our eyes and making us more responsible in the art of making private racy videos. Thank you for making our politicians work double time in redefining our current anti-obscenity laws and fast-tracking the passing of the anti-voyeurism bill to punish people committing offenses like yours. Thank you, for single handedly reviving the crackdown of video pirate dens thereby reducing the number of people making and circulating scandal videos.
We could not have chosen a better fall guy.
I experienced one of the most frustrating days of my life a few days ago. I actually had second thoughts about writing this entry because I did not want to bitch about work. But I thought that I just had to make an exception about this one.
I have a confession to make. You know how I’ve always harped about never showing myself to people I meet online? I ate my words. During a recent trip out of town, my partner and I met up with another couple who shared the same passion of posting sexy photos in the net. Why’d I finally decide to do an EB?
Like us, they regularly post well-executed photos. But unlike us, their photos reveal more skin than mine. And while we post ours here in FHM, they upload their pics to an artsy nude photography site. They are well-respected members of society but like to have naughty but discreet fun. Hence, they also value anonymity.
We got to know each other online, too, through emails and chat. We’ve consistently communicated for over a year and during that time, there was absolutely no pressure to reveal identities, be on cam or voice. Although I’ve had a few exchanges with the woman, I chat with the guy most of the time. Topics of our discussions were hardly about sex. Of course, it was a plus that they were married and were from out of town.
While chatting, I mentioned that I was going to their part of the world. Out of the blue, the guy proposed to meet up with me and my partner, something like a double date. I was hesitant at first but my gut told me that they seemed like decent people. So I said yes. We decided to have after dinner drinks in a bar which we both picked.
On our way to the bar, I was surprised to find myself very excited. I was actually eager to meet them in person. The venue was packed but in a crowd, it was easy to locate an Italian guy with an awesome looking Asian lady. They probably know I was Asian Dyna because as we entered the bar, they immediately stood up to greet us. It was funny because despite both our efforts of maintaining obscurity, we recognized each other with ease.
After brief introductions and customary hello kisses, we went back to the table. It was amazing because our conversations went on very smoothly. There were no awkward moments. The four of us chatted like we were all old friends. After staying in that bar for a good two hours, we decided to move to another place. Another 2 hours were spent with more drinks, good chitchat and, this time, some dancing.
We had so much fun that when the night was nearly over we vowed to meet up again. Before we parted ways, the Italian guy mentioned that they had a swimming pool in their house and proposed skinny dipping for our next meeting. I just flashed a sly grin and said goodbye.
I had such a blast I might just do this again.
But, do not get your hopes up—at least not just yet. What is most important is that you have to strike a chord with me. There has to be something that you possess that would make me feel comfortable about the whole notion of getting together. Don’t ask me what it is though, because I have absolutely no idea. I guess my gut just has a mind of its own.
I keep thinking about his skinny dipping proposal. It is obvious that this will be brought up when we do decide to get together again. I’m afraid I wouldn’t know what to say. Oh, well. I’ll just cross the bridge when I get there. Who knows? I might catch myself eating my words again.
Our group photo with faces cropped, for obvious reasons. From left to right: my man, the awesome Asian lady, me, the Italian guy.
You all know that I enjoy receiving personal letters and messages. Except for hate mails, viruses and forwarded messages, I reply to every single one of them, no matter how ordinary or bizarre they may be. This is, after all, an opportunity to exchange correspondences with those who view my photos and read my bog. I thought it would be interesting to give you a rundown of what I have received so far.
Emails:
Photos:
The fifth one was, it was outrageously carnal. It was so straightforward, in a smutty way. Well, at least I was convinced that I was the reason for all that gooey mess.
Videos:
I really don’t mind getting all these explicit photos and videos of women. However, it absolutely sucks if photos are sent without the model’s consent. This is probably the most selfish and meanest thing one can do to a loved one.
Proposals/Monetary offers:
The highest amount I was offered for sex was Php50k. A similar amount was offered for me to model in the nude. Someone wanted to touch me for Php5k. As for my pubes, ahem, let’s not even go there.
If you must know, I have declined all proposals - monetary or otherwise. Although it is certainly quite tempting to sell some of the stuff I wear or accept harmless and decent offers, my better judgment tells me to turn all these down. I’m afraid that saying yes to one or two will certainly stir a hornet’s nest.
On the other hand, I have read and replied to every single email and I have seen every single photo and video. Although there were a few that were not to my liking, majority of items thrown in my inbox were amusing and interesting eye openers. I have to admit that I was always entertained. Of course, I look forward to receiving more of these sorts in the future.
One fine day, a couple of days before my monthly curse, I found myself in the middle of a crisis. I was going out and I could not decide what dress to wear. To make things worse, my reason was being clouded by raging hormones. A woman’s monthly curse, male readers, makes things even more complicated, you see. I decided that help was necessary. I took both dresses and approached my partner. Read the rest of this entry »
The most popular photos in my gallery are those taken in public. I get an assortment of eager questions about them: Did anyone see you? Are you sure there was no one else there? What would you have done if someone saw you? Somehow, I get this feeling that my viewers are hoping that bystanders were actually able to witness those public photo sessions. Well, I think you will be happy to know that there is no need to fantasize. To date, I have had four photo sessions taken in areas open to the public. And, awkward as it may sound, I actually got caught during all of those sessions.
I’m sure you would like to hear all about it right now. So here’s the good, the bad and the ugly of it all. Read the rest of this entry »
